Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Day 30 Gratituesday 10-30-12
Way back when....my therapist challenged me with the idea that amid the chaos and craziness that ensues during the course of ending things it is so important to recognize the GOOD, the IMPROVED, the BLESSINGS that exist in our lives, no matter how small, or how insignificant it may seem. Recognizing that we do have good things in our lives allows us to refocus and gain perspective.
It's blissfully cold here today....it's unlike past years - for once it really feels like fall. I love it - I love the snap and crackle of cold in the mornings, I love the leaves, baking pumpkin and apple things - the parties - sigh....I love fall.
I'm feeling very grateful today for the chance to shed off my old stuff and start again. Maybe it's the emotional aftermath from my lesson this past Sunday - maybe it's the resolve of letting go of things - maybe it's just tuesday lol - I am just feeling very grateful.
If I sit back and list all of the things that have had to converge for my life to be where it is, it doesn't take a genius to realize that there has been a beautiful heart watching over my life, directing my path, and helping me along the way. This month has had a lot of up and down moments and sometimes it feels like I'm experiencing a rollercoaster, but I'm realizing that the good is happening more and more. As much as I struggle with my calling, I really do love it. As much as its been a struggle to parent my kids alone, it is worth every agony to share their lives and cultivate a loving relationship with them. And even tho I'm struggling to love my job at the moment - I'm so grateful that I have one that allows me to pay my bills and even do some extras :)