Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Gratituesday (Day 9) 10.9.2012

Back during my divorce, my therapist challenged me with the idea that amid the chaos and craziness that ensues during the course of ending things it is so important to recognize the GOOD, the IMPROVED, the BLESSINGS that exist in our lives, no matter how small, or how insignificant it may seem.  Recognizing that we do have good things in our lives allows us to refocus and gain perspective.

I promise I am grateful.

A friend sent this to me knowing about some struggles I was having today and I needed the reminder that Heavenly Father really does know the bigger picture. 

I had one of those whattheheckamIdoingwithmylife moments this week.  You know the one - the one in which we start asking if it was something we did that impacted our kids to make choices that are dumb.  The one where we question every choice we've made ever. Satan does know my insecurities for sure - I fell prey to his influence for a bit, cursing agency and all its consequences.  I got down on myself for not being stronger, not being a better example, not being "more". 

I want to be.

Just after I got this cute little reminder, I spotted the quote from Jeffrey R. Holland's April Conference talk that says: 
"...however late you think you are, however many chances you think you have missed, however many mistakes you feel you have made or talents you think you don’t have, or however far from home and family and God you feel you have traveled, I testify that you have not traveled beyond the reach of divine love. It is not possible for you to sink lower than the infinite light of Christ’s Atonement shines."
today I am grateful for that infinite light of Christ's Atonement.

Perhaps it is just that Satan recognizes my attempts at making changes in my own life and strikes in moments so filled with uncertainty, but I forget this message of love.  I've been taking it for granted for too long.  Perhaps it's time to move it to the forefront of my life.  It's time for me to let go of some things, entirely. 

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